the first time i was hurt hd to be from a bike wreck. i still have scars all over my knees and other areas from wrecking. i know it all hurt. and this one time i was setting on a skateboard going down a hill riding it when i seen a car who didnt see me so i put my feet down trying to stop it.. my feet rolled under the skateboard and dragged on the concrete. my hands ended up under there too just dragging. i didnt think i was going to be able to walk. it hurt so bad and i was trying not to cry in front of everyone. both of my knees were skinned up bad and the tops of my hands and my feet and my toes i had blood running down my legs and could barely walk with flipflops on where my feet were cut off. im pretty glad my mom didnt see me comming home looking like that she'd of died. and then this one time we were going to the top of this hill and riding down real fast to go up another steep hill. well this dumb guy was at the top of the hill and i just quit peddling but where it was so steep i just fell backwards and hit the concrete. i came to and my bike was on top of me. my head hurt. i was just mmostly mad bc i had new clothes on lol. maybe i shoulda had my head checked out idk im fine now or atleast i think

i am thankful and blessed with a lot. a lot more than i usually realize. and i told my bf that the other night and he was like whoa this isnt ashley lol. its easier to always look at all the bad and forget about the good. its funny how one bad thing seems to overcome you even when u have numerous good things going for you. i am certainly blessed to be saved. I thank GOd everyday. Im thankful for my family.. my mom inpaticular. i get really annoyed with her but shes one of my best friends. im thankful for my awesome bf who treats me better than any guy ever has. hes the only one in my life i can actually depend on. if he says hes going to do something or hell be there, he will no worries. im thankful for my ruby! when im in a bad mood she cheers me up. every time i come home shes always happy to see me. she warms and cuddly in the night. im really thankful for my job. and i just got moved to the pharmacy! so im def thankful for that. i prayed for a while about that one. I have a lot of job security at walmart and i know my hours will always be good.

why i love summer time... ! well because its time for graduation unlike the old typical graduations that are in the spring ours just happens to fall in the summer. but thats ok what an exciting week it shall be. graduation and then the beach just 3 days apart from one another. two things i havent ever done all in the same week. ive never been so excited for the summer to get here as i am now. then next semester i plan on tking 5 classes or so. hopefully i can get out of school in a timely fashion. bc i need to be so i can create the life that i want. thats why. now as soon as i come back from te beach ill be wishing it was fall. thats just how i am i get tired of stuff real fast. summers good though bc i work all days in the summer and dont have any thing to do but work. and work is a must not only bc i need money now days but bc it gets really boring setting at home. i set at home one day last week until like 8 or 9 and i about died. had too much time to think about stuff i didnt need to think about. but this bf of mine idk what hes doing with college. he has enough credits to get a freaking doctorate. i think hes went back to his first major but it worries me that if we do get married and move back home to tn there wont be any work down there for him like there would be here. so hipefully he thinks it thorugh he seems to think he will find something so i guess ill stay confident in his words until i have a reason not to. adios

when i am stressed i like going to the tanning bed. i think its relaxing to just doze off and get all warm with music in the background and just forget about everything. i like to exercise too. when im really stressed its probably the best thing for me. i tend to stress alot so if i just stretch and run a little bit i feel a lot better not to mention it usually wears me out so i can to sleep easily. i shop when im stressed and right about now its a bad thing. idk why i do that i mean after i get home and look at the damage ive done its another stresser right now ecspecially since my moms husband has been unemployed since january and im having to pay out about as much as i make for my car and insurance... sheww now that stresses me out. but things have to get better eventually if i can hang in there and soon hopefully my mom can take my cAr payment back.. i like my dog too. when im upset i play with her or just pet on her shes cheerful always happy to see you tail wagging. shes a cutie. i sleep when im stressed when i just dont want to deal with it or think about it i go to sleep.

ill write about love. i couldnt live without love. thats what keeps me going. if u havent got love, u havent got anything. thats what i think anyways. i get great pleasure from my dog. shes pretty much my best friend lol. Shes so loveable and always happy to see you people usually arent like that. u can just look at her and she starts wagging im like awww. of course i try to pick her up then n she runs n bites me trying to play lol.. my mother loves me too. shes always there. and then theres my boyfriendddd. he loves me alot. maybe well get married i kinda think we will.. never thought that about anyone before. so we shall see. but he thinks im about insane bc most of the time i am. but he manages to still love me. through the good bad and the ugly. its nice to be loveed. even if its not by many people bc i left all my family and friends in tennessee. and most of my friends always they tell me they love me like a sister would. what sweeties?!? haha ruby my dog went to get groomed at pet smart the other day and i tried handing her over to them and she griped on to my arm and scratched the far out of me. she was on the road for 7 hours that day. good doggie

i dont like these laptops they weigh like 10 pounds thats like packing my dog around all day. then half of the time they dont work. see them not working is the reason i have to do so many blogs all at once. bc yes i did have a laptop but in the 15 or 20 mins she gave us to blog my laptop wouldnt even start up.. piece of crap. i think laptops are too advanced for high school anyways. maybe bc im old fashioned and theyve been noting but a pain. there isnt enough room on my little body to pack everything around the half day that im here. heavy piece of crap. theyre not very dependable like most people haha. so my blog should just be called my complaints im noticing i do that alot on here. oh well at least im not fussing and griping at or to someone. so i dont have much to talk about.. proms in a month :) and the week before im going tanning crazy. oh gosh im going to be 50 and wrinkled so bad.. poor poor skin. i think about things. like how different the people in owensboro are from the people in my hometown of tennessee. people here are just a lot ruder in general. there isnt as many good old country people here. and i dont mean people that havent got any teeth and dont wear shoes. so hurry up college come and go so i can return home with my wonderful bf and precious dog

high school is a time when students really find out who they are. theres some who are followers and leaders. theres sooooo many students who do things because others are. its so stupid!!! high school can be fun if u want it to be thats for sure. i went in as a cheerleader and loved every minute of it. i was very involved and it was fun. i moved here im not involved and i about hate it. so being involved makes a huge difference and i strongly recommend it. high school is wild. dont let anything suprise you. youll hear alot of rumors, dont believe any of it. and dont be the one spreading them. High school is full of that sort of stuff. you know immature people. i look back and think about high school when i didnt live here and would love to go back. i think senior year is a waste. all of my classes except english arent even required when ive had gov/econ already.. so i think i could be doing something more valuable than doing busy work. you make alot of friends thats if u want to anyways. and friends are great to have. in high school theres not so much of a cool group anmore. there is but not like middle school. middle school was rather harsh for me. be what u wanna be and not what others want of you

were going to myrtle beach this summer. ive never been to any beach. neither has my bf. so were super excited. and we finally found a nice hotel room that we can actually go to. most of them require a minimum check in age of 25.. we finally found one that had a check in age of 21. i guess thats why im keeping him around hhahaha. we got a really nice oceanfront executive king suite with a balcony.. its exciting. im going to go and soak up some sun. well get there on a monday. and that day ill probably just lay on the beach all day. i know my bf will be tired bc he has drill the following weekedn. i never had the drive to even go to the beach and then he frankly mentioned going this summer. and the closer and closer its gets to going the more excited i get. of course, ill have to go shopping for beach towels bc neither of us have any. and ill need some beach wear like bikinis and coverups

if i could be anything i want to be id be an anestheologist and i cant even spell it. since i got my wisdom teeth took out ive been intrigued by sedation. its amazing. and those kind of doctors make a good 150-200,000 a year. but its like 10 or 12 years of schooling and whew id be in debt for a little while paying off those loans. so its a no. im in a hurry to start my career asap bc im not that happy with things as they are. and its up to me to change it all and that i will do. maybe ill be an oral surgeon assistant. they talk to the patients about the procedure and that type of thing. they put the needle in them! and set up all the controls to the machines and then aid the doctor. i think itd be exciting bc there would be different procedures done daily. and i really wanna be an ane********** so this is like as good as it gets for me. and id be real happy with that. i just fear that the assistant doesnt make as much as hygiensists and thats where i stay confused...

Things id like to do in life:
go to the beach!!!
go to disney world
go to a beach outside of the usa
take a cruise
have some kids
get married
become a dental hygienist or oral surgeon assistant
get a car of my choice
workout
have a family
move homeee

i feel like part of my childhood was taken away from me. Theres some kids who have to grow up faster than others and i was one of them. my childhood was rough and i learned fast not to depend on anyone but myself. I love my mom and everything but i still dont like to depend on her to do anything for me. if i wanted anything id have to get it myself. thats why i was so eager to get a job asap. and i did and since then ive worked.. i buy my own stuff pay for everything and enroll myself in all this college stuff. everyone else parents do this stuff for them but not mine. its my worries trying to do all this stuff and its just taken away from me being a kid. thats why im going to make sure my children do not work until at least their senior year if not later. after i got a job i had to let a lot of things go that are important to me. so look back and wish i could have been more of a child and had less worries

my favorite foods- hmm theres a lot. if im not hungry or craving it i cant eat it or it makes me sick kinda weird. i love salads with french dressing unless they have chicken in them then it has to be ranch dressing. i also love tater tots and cheese sticks from sonic. i love ice cream and slushies. Milk and cookies. i love burnt sausage lol. and bacon uhm. of course steak well done. red stuff is just gross i tried t once and blood ran down my mouth and i was done with that steak it wasnt even rare it was like medium or something ewwww. i love junk food. chips and cakes and cookies and candy bars. and fruits. fruits like strawberries, grapes, pineapple, apples, ooranges, and thats about it. veggies are good with ranch. i could eat munch on those for hours

spring is in the air. its a good thing too. its like a breathe of fresh air. I cant wait to go swimming. and lay out all day. and this spring just happens to be graduation and prom and all kinds of good stuff. i want a new car bc i dont like mine anymore. then again id like to have an older car so i didnt have to worry about it getting scratched up anymore. id alos like to be out of college already. now im faced with a problem. so i could go to occ for 2 years then western for 2 n graduate. but if i decided to move chances are all my classes from that community college wont transfer. so now im wondering if i should look into going just to the western campus. it may cost more but hopefully i get enough financial aid. i love my dog. dont love my boyfriend anymore. we said byebye today. so haha

he can take a heartache and turn it all around.. theres power in prayer. hes the God that wont fail when friends let you down, cast all your cares on him cuz i found... one of my favorite gospel songs. i love God and anything warm about church and sining. it makes me want to cry from joy sometimes i guess you could say im touched. i miss my church and i havent been to one in a good two years. id love to find a church but i know itll never be like my church at home. so ill keep my faith til i move home after college and ill go back every time the doors are open. in Gods house is the best place to be. and my bf's catholic i have a hard time accepting that. maybe its because we didnt have any people like that where i come from or it just troubles me to think if we have kids and get married someday their parents wont go to church together and thats a family thing. so im trying toget use to the weirdo. having a family is very important to me and raising themup in church is essential. i just felt jolly about the Lord and its a great feeling. thought id share it

some warnings that are obvious and kind of dumb/ funny:
1.) on our tests at walmart, signs that say do not use, do not use the equipment
2.)peanut butter contains peanuts
3.) marhsmallows- choking hazard
4.) hair straighten- caution hot
5,) tanning beds that say may c ause skin cancer
6.) nyquil may cause drowsiness

i hate the snow. i hate my job. id be alot happier if i had a job that wasnt too horrible but mine it is. ill just blog about work because it makes me so mad i could go on and on and on for forever. like the other night when this... hmm not so nice lady to put it lightly that thinks shes awesome bc she works at walmart came and MADE my bf get out of my line and some random people he was talking to bc we have a no family through your line deal thing but we cant refuse them. i dislike her allloootttt now didnt like her in the first place. then i had a dream she was trying to kill me lol.. anyways walmart is a kiss-butt kind of place. i dont kiss anyones butt so maybe thats why im not everyones pet. im above that. and when im there for 8 hrs i make thousands of dollars for them and for that day i might go home with 60 dollars... whew money is only worth so much to me and that is not worth dealing with frustrations all day long

Who or what makes you laugh? theres really quite a few things and people that make me laugh. I laugh quite often because its healthy for a person. and sometimes it like either laugh or cry. like this one weekend my bf and i broke up in a horrible way and then one wild night i busted my tire out meeting a cop at a gas station to go find some boys i apparently had hog tied.. then that monday morning my aunt was following me to the shop to drop my car off and wham! i backed right back into her van i got out and it was just moving back and forth.. i laughed. it was either that or break down and cry and acry and cry. now its a quite funny story but then it sure wasnt. and my teacher for criminal justice was a cop and i was always that sweet quite girl in his class and then his buddy told him about our weekend lol.. it was interesting

ways to say no...
we dont accept that,
its against our policy,
im not allowed,
im tired,
i stink,
i have other things to do,
my bf wouldnt approve,
i cant,
id love to if i didnt have to work,
im grounded,
im sick,
unfortunately not,
sorry,
God wouldnt approve.

i dont want anymore snow days. i mean the snow is fun and not comming to school is nice but then when you think about making it up in the summer that takes all the fun out of it. i think the kids who want snow days are the kids without lives and dont have much going for them. i know i want to graduate on time. and this summer im going to start taking summer classes at occ so id like to have a little break in between. i thought they would give us snow days that we didnt have to make up. where i come from in tn we had a bunch of snow days we could use and never have to make up. all making my point that tn is definately better than ky. and i really hate ky. and i hate that its basketball and superbowl season and im around a bunch of kentucky fans... booo. i wll return to tn once i graduate from college bc i think owensboro is a horrible place to raise kids. and people up here aggrevate me. maybe my job makes me think so badly of the owensboro public. could be all the bad kids here too. maybe both

ill tell another story about my lovely dog ruby. my mom had my neice over and it was really cold so she didnt want to take her out and the baby didnt have any baby food or juice. so you know lucky me got the pleasure of going to the dollar store. so i took my dog she loves going byebye. the dollar store was right up the road she was rushing me hurry ashley shes hungry. so i go in and i came out with my hands full and out the car ruby went. i threw the stuff in my car and ran after her doors open with my purse and keys inside. that little dog ran around the whole entire store running faster and faster every time i gained on her almost like she was laughing like hahah u cant catch me. i was so scared bc right there by the road and moving cars went my stupid little dogs. so i finally stopped at my car and opened the other door and asked her if she wanted to go byebye luckily she jumped in. i got in turned around and whooped her. she scared me to death! i could have lost my little baby. i fussed at her all the way home and she just laid in the back unlike her usually peeping window to window.

dog's advice

My dog would probably give me some goofy advice bc shes just silly. She would say to run under the couch whenever we get out her leash for the kitchen. She would also say to beg and go crazy whenever Ashley starts getting dressed or gets her keys then maybe ashley would feel sorry for her and take her byebye. She would say to run from anyone when they try to grab her just for meanness. She would tell me to bark at anything and anyone bc everythings evil and shes huge enough to scare it away. she would also tell me when i have to go potty just wine at the door or if its 7 oclock in the morning and shes in the bed to aggrevate ashley with puppy kisses until she gets up. She would tell me to never share my toys bc i might not get them back for a while she has been teased badly. she would tell me to eat any human food if i get the chance that means snatch it out of their hands and run. She would tell me to dig and scratch when they forget to feed me or fill my water.

no babies

These are my reasons for not having a baby any time soon:
1) bc everyone else is doing it and i hate following the trends of everyone else
2) i definately cannot afford a kid by myself
3) BABIES ARE ANNOYING
4) ITD GET Sick and id die
5) i have a baby dog that takes up most of time
6) im still a kid
7) something could go wrong
8) im not married
9) school first babies later
10) i dont have a babysitter unless i could train my dog to watch it hahaha

macbeth...

this play were reading in english is horrible! i dont understand most of the content. shakespeare is like a foreign language to me. we have a study guide to go along with it and this time its very difficult for me. maybe its my lack of interest in the play or maybe its just hard. i do it as we read and talk about things and theres still many blanks that are empty after the reading is over. senior english definately is not my favorite. i like my teacher and the class its just the actual material we cover is all that ancient stuff i never dreamed about having to read.. torture is what ill call it. its just very hard to pay attention and do well when u have no interest in the material your covering. its just ironic that all of the weird stuff ive done well on those tests. and then we read scrooge and i know that story well and almost failed that test! i guess i just got a big head or something.

ugly words

Of course, most cuss words are ugly.. super super ugly. NOstrils is just an odd word. Puke and vomit just makes my mind wonder and its not very pretty. Poop is an uncomfortable word. boil like a boil people get on their sick just sickens me. sperm is weird too it makes babies. hmmm.. spam is weird it reminds me of the canned stuff and its just full of juicy fatty stuff. i dont like the word snot either it puts nasty green images in my head. or mucus its gross. i dont like the word well i dont know if its a real word but all these ganster kids use it "swag" just weird. caulk is a weird word too bc it sounds too closely like something else... the word garment is just weird it sounds like itmeans more than clothing or something. those are some weird words for meeee

Bad Ideas

Some bad ideas I may have took part in some and others i may have witnessed:
- bathing my dog in the sink.. soaked kitchen
- speeding up in traffic to pass
- pushing a button bc i never pressed it before at work.. shut it down for a while
- getting a job bc your friend works there
- having another dog over.. my dog attacked him. funny stuff
- me trying to wash a car.. streak streak streak
- waiting til the last minute for anything
- jumping off the 4wheeler bc of a spider web
- playing with candles and toothpicks on the couch.. fire!
- over filling the washer

So the other morning i was driving home from my bfs and school was on an hour delay. So i go by 2 cops and im going 30 which is the speed limit trying to figure out why the car in front of me is going 10 mph. my radar was going crazy but i wasnt worried bc i was going the speed limit. i passed the second cop and there he came. i pulled over wondering what the heck. as i waited for him to walk up i seen the sign behind me that said end of school zone. oh crap! i was thinking i just got my sescond ticket which woullda been double and on top of that im late for school bc apparently school was in session somewhere. i had to ask where the school even was lol. anyways he took it easy on me and gave me a little courtesy notice bc i had already had a speeding ticket and probably lost my license since he caught me going 15 over and my last one was 16 over. That was my lucky day. Had he of been very mean my day would have been wrecked not just that day eiher.

I believe in superstitions. I usually dont go out of my way to avoid them but the thought is always there. like the other day i went to the dentist and i couldnt get around the coke guy so i had to walk under the stairs i had to think about it for a second. i believe in the mirror thing and the black cat. black cats are just spooky. And on new years my mom has always told me what u do that day ull be doing all year so i make sure not to wash clothes or clean any time that day. i am a big believer in jinksing. i think if u say oh ive never done this before or oh this has never happened to me itll come right around and bite me. so i try and refrain from saying things like that

This past year was good. Except for getting real sick in January and February.. worst experience ever. I started making wiser decisions and met my boyfriend. We've been dating for 7 months and i have to say its going very well. More good things than bad have happened and thats a real change in my life. i got a new car!! i thought i would never get one as nice as i did. im just hoping this year goes well with school and people. as long as i think right and make good decisions everything should fall into place. and keep my faith i wouldnt be anywhere without God