I movewed here from a little town. That little town was extremely religous. So I had always grew up in church and so did my friends. i was always very involved with going and participating in church activities. So then I moved here. And its not so much religous. I mean they sell alcohol here, they definately didnt where I'm from. It upsets me bc alot of kids ive talked to here dont believe in God. That just blew my mind. And then theres the different religions. My boyfriends catholic and im baptist so I ask alot of questions and i dont think their church makes sense but of course i would never say anything like that out of respect. At least they believe in something and have some kind of faith. Religion is a very important to me. Church is like a big family and a lot of people here are missing out on that.

Why do you shop? i know sometimes people shop simply bc they need new clothes. But for me its more like if im having a bad day, I can shop and its all better. I never thought it'd be so relieving to shop. I remember once when my boyfriend and I broke up I was very upset. So, I went shopping. Unfortunately, I stayed upset for a while. And guess what? i kept shopping. sure i had plenty of new clothes and all those good things, but after a week or two there had went nearly 400$. Its definately one of my stress relievers. Of course, not when I check my checking account :) I always go shopping by myself and of course I have to eat lunch. I love food too. While I'm shopping, I do not think outside the box which is great for this crazy little mind of mine! I'm definately hoping nothing bad happens to spark another shopping spree but I'm ready to have a day out with me.

Driving

There's way too many people driving, who don't know how to drive. It's very annoying and thats why theres all of these accidents. I dont even like parking my car beside other cars bc im affraid someone will back into it or something. I really hate it when people ride right up on me. I slam on my brakes every time. Yep, it'd be their fault if they hit me. I absolutely cannot stand it. I even get mad when im at a red light or something and cars get like 1 inch away from my car. My boyfriend is one of those lovely people who get right up on cars. I've never used my brake from the passenger side but i find myself trying to slam it on almost every time I go out with him. I really hate those people who are in such big hurries they drive really dumb and like swirve over in front of you when they dont have enough rough causing you to slam on your brakes and possibly get rear-ended. These things cause accidents to happen. I guess nobody thinks about that. Theyre just in a hurry inching up every little bit they can.

Fall

i just love fall. I'm hot blooded so its a time i can wear a tshirt and some jeans and be comfortable outside. I love all the fall colors. It reminds me of all the leaves changing colors. The fall candles and scents are amazing too! All of the pumpkin pie and cinnamon scents bring in the fall. I find it very comfy. It reminds me of family time too. Because of Thanksgiving :) and theres more pumpkin pie haha.. i kind of love it. And its time to start getting ready for Christmas! Also i love going out to my car and not sweating. I get upset when i get hot im weird. i guess i have a lot of good fall memories that certain colors and scents bring back. its nice to look back. and of course i cant forget about my wonderful birthday in october. its peaceful outside when the wind is blowing and the leaves are flying and you can bundle up in a hoodie. oh and leave piles! i dont do them anymore but when i was younger we made huge leave piles and jump into them for hours. it really wasnt even that soft but it was fun. im anxious for it to be like 60-70 degress outside.

So Excited!

For fall break i had big plans on going back home to tennessee and visiting. but then i started taking those college classes and i have fall break one week here and the next there.. So there goes my plans. I really wanted to go down there and hangout at school where i could see everyone. But anyways this Christmas I will be going down there. Christmas up here with no family is pretty horrible. I can't wait to see everyone and Christmas is the perfect time bc all my family will be together. It's so "homey" there. And my dad pretty much pays for my trip. Hopefully theres no snow along the way. I don't want to wait but I know I'll have to. So when I get there, I'll be good and ready to stay for 4 or 5 days. I love my family and my friends. It's a comforting feeling as soon as I get into town.

I have a cute baby neice and a dumb sister who had her. Me and my sister, Nikki, were bestfriends growing up. I moved away and then came back. My mom had been telling me about her awful bf. I didnt see what danger a boy could do besides pregnancy and STDs. Well, anyways I came back and she didnt live at home. That was so weird! she pretty much stopped caring about her family and focused on her bf their drugs and parties. It was all well for her until she got pregnant. they lived in a horrible horrible place where they smoked crack and she moved somewhere cleaner for the baby. Her bf cusses my mom out all the time and has even tried to hit her. Yep he's hit my sister too. Yep, we called the cops. Yep, her smart butt dropped all the charges bc shes so smart. and she keeps the baby away from my dear mommy and it upsets her. Basically, i feel so sorry for the child. She's not going to be raised by people with any morals and her parents have absolutely no money to provide her with anything. And my sisters dumb for doing that to herself but more importantly that baby.

Wal-Mart! Everyone loves Wal-Mart, right? yeah, well not me. I use to love going shopping with my parents and killing a couple of hours. But then i got a job there.. I always wanted to work there so it was just a dream come true. over a year later, I hate it! I need stuff and half the time do without it bc i dont want to spend any time i n there that isnt necessary. customers are the worst theyre so demanding and rude. they make me mad everyday. i dont get paid enough to put up with their attitudes. And the co-workers.. hm. Some are okay. The managers are just cheezy like hey lets act like we love our job and were a happy family. I hate being a cashier bc your watched 24/7 and you have customers just starring at you. i must do something amazing the way they stare. and 2 cents could make a world of a difference to some customers theyre pretty ridiculous. I decided Wal-Marts the worst store in the world. its rules and policies rules and policies..

Moving

Since I was in like 4th or 5th grade, I've been moving back and forth from my moms to my dads. It wasnt ever really a big deal bc they onlylived about 15 mins away, though i did have to change schools. But then it really changed one day. My mom met somebody and announced we'd be moving in 2 weeks. It was across town but across state, away from everything we had ever known. I left my family,my dad, friends, and my life as i knew it. we moved to ohio county. it was way different. it wasnt real big until i went to school and i was blown away and scared to death. I never noticed how many friends I had back home. I moved back to Tennessee and lived with my dad and later on my aunt when our house burnt down. That lasted a while. I started high school and absolutely loved that! I cheered, as i always did there. i had all my friends and family but after a while there was just something missing i could not live without and that was my mom. I moved back in with her and now she was living in Owensboro. I was like whoa! this place is huge! I left my family and friends and the most amazing high school ever! my years there were awesome. I have NONONO family here, so thats a big bummer.. I dont have 1 girlfriend. I'm unhappt at school bc i know how good it can be. i like comming from a small place where everyone knows everybody. Icant just start all over my junior year. i had friends that i was kin to and most of them i had known since kindegarten so definately the good kinds of friendships.This year,SENIOR YEAR, has been ecspecially hard. I keep thinking I should be down there with my friends bc we will never all be together again after this year. but i just cant move back down there. i have a lot going for me here and if its right that i go down there God will make a way. But I'm happy thats whats keeping me up here :)

College

I've always known I wanted to go to college. Basically, to be financially stable. There's plenty of other things for me to worry about when i get older so the way I see it money could be one less. I've changed my mind many times. I'm 100% sure I'll go into medical. Right now, I'm taking nursing classes but the more and more I go, I'm not so sure thats the right career for me. I'll probably go to a community college bc i am not ready to move again! So I guess ill see if i get accepted into the nursing program and if i do I'll just keep going with that unless i find another job of more interest to me. The way the economy is and stuff its important to think about how high of a demand there will be for a job in the next years to come. I just want to be able to have a big family, a job I like, and I think college is the first place to start.

Mommy and Me

My mom has to be my best friend. I have moved alot and thats made it about impossible to keep friends. My mom has always been there and she will always be. Even when i move away from her, she's still my bestfriend. When, I lived in Tennessee I called her every night and just when things popped up. My car broke down once and instead of calling my dad or somebody in town I called my mom who was 5 hours away. She laughed at me because I ran out of gas but thats another story.. I know that sometimes I dont treat her the way i should and I feel terrible about that. She has done more for me than anyone has ever done. She hates this little dog of mine so does the rest of my family, but she will not get rid of her bc of me :) it's cute. It makes me sad now that I'm growing up and I have a job and I go out and do my own thing now. Our schedules just never seem to work out right and I never get to go out and eat with her or go shopping like we use to. We still have big long talks that make me feel all better. in a way, she's kind of like my doctor!

What doesn't Kill you Can only Make you Stronger

My mommy always told me what doesnt kill you can only make you stronger. So, the way I see it when i get all grown up I'll be one heck of a lady! life throws many obstacles at you. Most of the time for me, theyre usually a pretty big deal. I've been through a lot in life from moving, to my parents divorce, and just getting along in life, and ive learned many lessons along the way. At the moment, it feels like you cant do ir or just cant take something any longer. But then in the end I'm always like im glad that happened. If i hadn't gone through the things I have I would still be clueless about alot of things in the world.